Do you ever just want to run away?
I'm having one of those days. Under appreciated and Fed-up. I'd like to do a New York job search just to go for a couple days and get away from the noise. I don't really want to live in NY, but a vacation, alone, might be nice...and Hubster keeps hinting about me getting a job.
It's no one's fault, really. I'm still feeling like dirt and screaming kids at 7:00 in the morning, coupled with Hubster upset because they woke him up is a little too much to bare right now. I'm supposed to be on my way to Raleigh to take care of my brother who was supposed to have surgery this morning. It got postponed to next week and I'm feeling a little anxious that I won't be able to help him out. Hubster took today and Monday off so I could go this week but now it's not happening. He can't take the days off next week so I'm kinda stuck. All this together has me a little short tempered and unsympathetic to the needs of my family. I'll shake it off.
I always end up feeling guilty when I'm short with the kids. Not that at times they don't bring it on themselves. I'm just usually such a laid back person that I know it must seem to come out of nowhere to them. What's good one day sends me over the edge on days like today. Should I try to hide my true emotions (as if I think before I explode)? Or is it good for them to see that Mommy has feelings too? Do I need to explain why I might be a little short tempered? I usually like to, to ease my guilt, after I've calmed back down and assessed the situation. How do you handle it?